T. E. Lawrence Correspondence – Page 365

Two paragraphs from T.E.Lawrence's Letter of 15.2.1922, written from the Colonial Office My own plans are still doubtful. I asked (Mr.) Winston (Churchill) to let me go, and he was not very willing; indeed he didn't want it. I told him I was open to hold on for a little till his first difficulties were over (there are new things happening just now), but not in a formal appointment. Probably I'll get leave on the first of March, & not go back again, unless that Paris idea comes further: or some other odd notion. There was a question of me for Egypt, if (Lord) Allenby came away: but that of course I wouldn't accept... I don't think Greg again to govern anything. If I get away finally from the Colonial Office about May my plans are to do nothing for a little, & then perhaps to consider the Air Force. Of course I'm too old to join it, but I think that the life & the odd hind (or lack of mind) there, might give me a subject to write about. This long-drawn-out battle over my immediate of the complains or real has put an ink stain into me... I find myself always going about trying to fit words to the sights & sounds in the world outside me. However all this remains uncertain, and will remain uncertain for me till I do it. That's a new course I have: of trying to prevent myself making up my mind till afterwards, when the need of action is over.