T. E. Lawrence Correspondence – Page 458

To Hogarth Wed.,27.vl.53 I was rather expecting such an issue; so am not worrying. A commission is out of the question. My prejudice against exercising authority would prevent my becoming even an N.C.O? (By the way it was Hoare who first moved to get me out of the R.A.F.: I remember; tho' it not a big enough point to fight it for the Navy, I askd AMEFY for it since I felt he might agree, & that for ..., could not entertain the idea of admitting me. The contrary proves the case. I doubt whether there is a plan to choose between Mary & Tonga, & under the coml. I know. As for getting ...... to the Tonga...well, I expectedS much of what I have received - RNR. so aisecounted it in advance: and the reality of it is probably no ..... than the reality of any other unit. It's only that the R.A.F. Is so much better. However please leave things. Trenchard is not good to tgree - & has no please major worries. Keep to (or reinstate RANCO. (I don't want my mother or other brothers to yourself know about it: they think I still have it). One of those entirely.) jillie jefts a tangle behinu & it took £3000 to straighten it. Two thousanu was no good to me: so I put £1000 into Iyping & £1000 into that boxe of mine; pictures mostly. IET over I feel I've explainec myself so badly to you. Would Faust's phrase ""an aliue "Listen qula antiscen" be any good? It's a lie case.